A Healthier Me.

Recently I've decided to get myself back into a more healthy place. And I'm not just talking hip size and thigh size. Although that is a huge part.....Pun intended:) Part of making myself healthier includes my attitude. I have started to accept that I won't be moving back to Boston or Utah anytime soon, if ever, and that my home is here in Oklahoma with Jeff. My bad attitude about living here didn't REALLY have anything to do with Oklahoma itself I've learned. It was about me being stubborn and thinking that it was just a temporary thing. That it wasn't ever going to really be my home. Once I decided to give it a chance, I actuallydecided I quite like it. And I know it makes Jeff happier to see me happier. A couple weeks ago I think I finally figured out a couple reasons why I was having such a hard time adjusting in the first place.

1. For the past 12ish years I've been in control of my own destiny. If I woke up and saw an ad in the paper looking for nannies (True story!), I could answer that ad, and move across country. Now I have a husband to consider. It's not just me anymore making the decisions.

2. Boston and Utah have both been such a HUGE part of my identity for so long, I've felt a little lost without either of them being the place I call home.

3. I'm married to and living with a BOY for the first time. And while it being an answer to many years of prayers, and having the MOST wonderful husband in the world....it's still a little strange to have to put the toilet seat down. And it's a little strange to see shaving cream in my bathroom:).

4. I don't have my friends or sisters or mom near me. It's been a little lonely at times.

Thank goodness for great in-laws or it could have been REALLY lonely around here.

5. My husband works over-night. So I'm adjusting to a new place, a new relationship and I feel like I NEVER get to see him!

I'm not trying to make anyone feel sorry for me. I'm seriously so lucky and blessed. It's just been a learning period for me.

The other problem in my life? The physical one? I have my OWN kitchen for the first time ever. And whether it was a good decision for my waistline to make cream puffs in the middle of the night, I've pretty much made whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted if something struck my fancy! Trust me that is changing. I can't promise I won't ever bake at midnight when I want cookies, but it won't be happening every night of the week:)

So after all that soul bearing, I'll get to the original idea I had for this post (who knew I had so much I wanted to say?). Last week, I made myself a promise that I would go to the gym at least 3 times that week ( I did achieve that!) As I got out to my car after working out one day, it was already this hot outside:Bearing that in mind, what bright idea do you think I had? I thought I could sweat a little bit more by rolling up the windows in this INSANE heat and turning the heater on. That lasted for about 1 minute. It felt like the flames of hell were literally eating me alive. When I told Jeff what I did, he just looked at me like I was a crazy person. So the point of that story? Some ideas are better in my head than acted out!

But I am going to stick with making myself healthier. Inside and out.....And I when I eat delicious things like this salad for lunch, it's not too hard to be healthy....Most of the time:)

And something I love about Oklahoma? It's not hard to find evidence all around you that God is important to people here. I love that about my new home!

P.S. I've decided this blog thing is actually pretty awesome. Whether or not anybody reads it, I like being able to write about what I want. I'm finding it pretty therapeutic and FUN!